Treasuring Christ…is more important than bearing children.
This sentence, in the midst of an enormous quote by John Piper, took my breath away yesterday. It almost caused me to fall to my knees…
You see, bearing children has been at the forefront of my mind for 3 years…three.long.years.
And in that time, I’ve had many arguments with God, I’ve prayed, I’ve questioned, I’ve pondered, I’ve cried, I’ve dreamed…
…I’ve grown, I’ve found a deeper love for my Savior, my eyes have been opened to His will for my life…
…but yet, have I truly figured out how to treasure Christ above a desire that is so deeply important to me?
I wrote these words two years ago. Two years later we’re gearing up for a birthday party for a little girl turning two in January! And, two years later we’re still praying for biological children. Five long years ago (tomorrow) we decided to start having children. We’ve lost one to an ectopic pregnancy and one to a failed adoption since then…
Whether I bear children or not, God is in control and He has a greater purpose for me than anything I could ever dream of…
We’re still going through a season that’s uncertain. We’re taking steps to grow our family and would love a few prayers on our behalf. The road is still uncertain…
But, what is certain is, I am forever changed due to the trial of infertility. And at the end of the day, I know that I’m within the will of God and I know that there’s no greater place to be!
Will you pray for peace, direction, and wisdom today?
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Love this Christie! You always inspire me. I only have a VERY TEENY TINY idea of what this feels like. My heart hurts for women who cannot have children. Especially in a world that assumes everyone will….you know how people are always asking “When are you guys going to have kid?” I hate that…it’s nobody’s business. Anyway…I could go on, but I think it is important in any situation to remember who is in control!
Christie,
I know. We are still in that uncertain season…and are walking that walk on a daily basis. The one thing I have learned, apart from the fact that He is with us, is the fact that it is OK to be angry and argue with God. He’s strong enough, He can take it. I have spent time being brutally honest with God…and He already knows our hearts.
There is a reason. We may never know this side of heaven, but it is for His glory.
Jeremiah 29:11
Mandy
praying for you and as always, enjoying your posts!
Having a miracle baby of my own I will send much love and light your way and positive thoughts to the universe
A wonderful thing to celebrate… both Christ and your baby! May God continue to guide you!
John Piper’s words are very poignant…
“Treasuring Christ…is more important than”____ fill in the blank.
I pray for God’s guidance and continued intimacy with Him through this uncertain time. I’m thankful that you’re sitting in the center of His will… a very secure and sweet place to be.
I’m a new follower and look forward to getting to know you.